My Experience of Heaven

Last night while I was at church something strange happened to me. I cannot describe what it was, but it was like taking the next step towards God. A burden had been lifted from me, and my heart feels freer than ever. After church, when I went home to by bed, I had trouble sleeping, so I chose to meditate on God. After getting deep into meditation, I entered into a lucid dream. A lucid dream is a dream in which you are aware of the fact that you dreaming and can control the dream. This has happened numerous times in the past, and although it is uncommon, I have grown used to them occurring. However, this time was very different, for it was the first time that I actually had the self control and desire to chase after God within the lucid state, instead of chasing after the typical selfish desires that humans naturally turn to when gifted with Lucid Dreaming. I sat down within that dream, and meditated within my own meditation. When this happened, something more than a mere dream occurred to me. I was taken through to another realm; another state of existence. I can only describe the place I was taken to as what most people call heaven.

I have written this blog to record my experience, and although words cannot express the experience itself, it will help remind me of it.

Sound
Music was playing. It was the ultimate song. Infinite information of what the song sounds like was conveyed without time. Beautiful. A perfect representation of God. Unable to be heard with human ears, I cannot begin to describe what it sounded like because technically I would not even label it as sound. It was non visual, non verbal untouchable artwork of God. It was not digital, it was a frequency that did not have waves. It simply ‘was’.

Feel

Throughout the experience, I could feel an indescribable sensation of warmth and love from the centre of my being that overwhelmed me. It was Love, Peace, SouI, God.

Body

had no body, and was able to fly to places with mere thought. Although I had this ability, I did not use it because I was honestly awestruck at what I was witnessing.

Visuals

Everything was made from infinite fractals, but they were different from earthly fractals. On earth, we can only see what our extremely limited eyes and brains can process. We need microscopes to see the deeper information of the fractals in our world. In the dream the infinite information contained in the fractals was observable because I had no eyes. I was a purely mental being. Everything was infinite and perfect.

Nothing was moving in a sense, because like the music, all the information of how it moved was already streamlined into me. I was beyond time, so there was nothing to be ‘animated’ because all the ‘animation’ data of everything was already present in a singular moment.

The actual description of what I saw was a river, coming from mountains in the distance. The water was running, but not in time. It had already ran, it was running and it would always run. All the ‘information’ of how it ran was there, but beyond time, similar to the music. The river was life itself.

There were fields of some plant, that had a stalk like wheat, but the bud was large like a fruit, and looked like a rose. The entire landscape was full of this plant. And it was made perfectly from infinite fractals. I knew that the plant was eatable, but I did not have time to try It. I was only there for 30 seconds before I woke up.

I saw some houses in the distance, and they looked very humble but quite large. I cannot really remember any specific details about what they looked like as they were far away.

The sun was glory, and never went down. It was always there and would always be there. I know this because like I described earlier, all the information of what things behave like was present; outside of time. It was radiant like nothing on earth or space and it had the warmth of love within it. Everything radiated pure love.

When I woke up, I was crying. What I had experienced was more real than this reality, and I desperately want to go back. I am envious of my future self, as I know this relationship, this place, is what I was created for.

Anyway, I must stress that the objects and descriptions of what I have written will not give you the slightest idea of what heaven is like, because it is not the objects themselves that made this place heaven. It was the level of consciousness; the mental state of the ‘place’. I honestly would not even call it a place, because it is not a physical world. But for lack of a better word I must call it a place. This ‘place’ was made of pure consciousness, similar to a dream, but infinite in every regard. It is the dream of God. The heart of his being and the purest place where his essence dwells.

I did not meet a physical image of God, because I did not need to. God was inside me. His love radiated my entire spirit, and no words needed to be said. The experience itself was enough for me. And it has changed me in a way that has brought me to tears right now as I right this.

He loves you so much. he loves me so much, and I will never understand the human nature of why I have judged myself in the past. We are infinite beings destined for an infinite world; and the only requirement to attain this world is give your heart and life to our beautiful and perfect creator.

Are Drugs Evil?

Pre-Warning

Before reading this, I must stress that what I am about to say might sound confrontational. Even if you believe that drugs are good or evil, the things I am about to say might challenge your understanding of morality and the way we view drug users.

My Experience

As a Christian who has taken LSD, you might be surprised to hear that I had an indescribable experience that changed my life in a positive way. You might also be surprised to hear that I believe that LSD, magic mushrooms and weed do not melt your brain and leave you as a bumbling idiot. I understand that some people with a history in mental illness might be triggered by psychedelic drugs, but for normal people, it is not physically harmful.

Psychedelic drugs allow you to open your mind and explore it in a way that can only be bested by one thing; God himself. If I were to live a life without God, taking psychedelic drugs would literally be the next best thing; because it allowed me to see the world through eyes that have never seen it before.

I have never met an atheist who has taken LSD or magic mushrooms, and stayed an atheist. LSD is like forcing yourself to witness a miracle for 12 hours without a break, and this experience is so profound that it has been scientifically proven to permanently change your personality and worldview. What is this miracle you are witnessing when you take LSD? Life: through the eyes of your spirit.

Before taking LSD I had researched the effects of it so I understood the risks quite well. The reason I took it was because I wanted to experience something spiritual. Despite being raised in a Christian family, my life was not spiritually fulfilling and I wanted to learn more about reality. All the stories I had read online sounded amazing, but they were nothing quite like the experience itself.

LSD expands your consciousness. This means that it allows your brain to process information at a higher level, and gives your soul more options of free will. When I took LSD, my ability to completely control my emotions was handed to me, along with more understanding and wisdom than the past 3 years of my life. I was able to see my life through completely untainted eyes, which allowed me to see both the positive and negative aspects of myself. It was very confronting, because I saw how much of an arrogant, selfish person I was; but I was also able to change this, and become a better person.

When I took LSD, I was also given the complete awareness that God was with me. During the experience, my level of love was lifted beyond normal capacity. But this awareness of his presence wore off after the drug trip had ended.

Many people (mostly Christians) say they know that God is everywhere, but this is not something to be known; it is something to be experienced. If one simply ‘knows’ that God is there, but does not consciously acknowledge his all-pervasive presence, one is simply inventing a symbol of God and using it to explain things, instead of leaving behind this symbol and embracing God himself.

If you don’t understand what I mean, imagine me writing down on a piece of paper, the words “a million dollars”. You understand the knowledge of the “million dollars” but there is a big difference between knowing about the million dollars and actually having the cash in your hand.

When under the influence of LSD, I could not ignore God. God was not a symbol to me, God was REAL. My whole life I had been viewing God as a symbol up until this point. This is one of the reasons why many people claim LSD should be taken for spiritual purposes. However, even after taking LSD I do not claim it should be taken under any circumstances, but I will explain why in a minute.

For now, I will explain the effects that LSD had upon me when I took it many years ago.

The visual effect of the drug was extremely inspiring as an artist. A good way of expressing how LSD changed my visual perception of the world is to imagine your current vision resolution like a computer screen. LSD can quadruple the size of the computer screen; it enhances your ability to take in visual information like some sort of steroid.

LSD also intensifies your ability to perceive patterns. I was able to see fractal patterns everywhere; both hallucinogenic and real. Every image I looked at was holographic and animated. I spent hours looking at space images online, because they were three dimensional. During my experience I was in constant communication with God, and was praising him as to the incredibly beautiful creation I was a part of.

I have also smoked weed. Weed was the first drug I had ever tried, and was amazing at first because it inspired my creativity and allowed me to view my three dimensional mind like a projector. I could see the Drawing I was about to create before I drew it. Music sounded better, food tasted better, and it overall just made me happy.

Drugs – The Positive & Negatives

Now that I’ve explained my experiences of the three main psychedelic drugs, I will list a summary of the positive and negative effects it has had on me.

POSITIVE

  • Expanded my consciousness in 12 hours to comparative to a few years of meditation
  • Allowed me to correct the faults in my Character
  • Given me knowledge that the supernatural is real, and exists in the mental realm
  • Provided me with Artistic Inspiration
  • Made my life interesting and fun

NEGATIVE

  • Created an addiction to Weed
  • Created a reliance on Drugs for Spiritual learning
  • Given me a taste of cosmic knowledge; enough to make me want more, but never giving more
  • Tricked me into thinking that Drugs were the pathway to the answers of the universe
  • Created an Irresponsible attitude towards my own safety
  • Created an addiction to Synthetic weed (when I ran out of real weed)
  • Created a careless attitude towards the future (live for the now, etc…)
  • Filled my life with guilt, as my family disagreed with my choices
  • Made me depressed and extremely bored when I ran out of drugs

During the time of my life that I was taking drugs, I personally felt that the positive effects far outweighed the negative, but this was only because I was mostly unaware of the negative effects at the time. I knew that they were there but did not want to admit them or confront them; lest they tear me away from the fun I was having.

The only way one can truly know the negative effects of the best thing in their life is to find a better thing and compare the two.

So are Drugs Evil?

I am no longer Pro-drugs; not because drugs are pure evil. The evil of drugs come from the fact that they are a distortion of something far greater and better; God.

Drugs have an element of truth that can lead a person to God, so I understand why they exist. They are not simply on earth to lead people astray from the truth. If a person seeks the truth, and they take psychedelics, they will eventually find it. But if a person is happy with what they already know and does not wish to peruse truth until the day they die, they will probably stay with drugs.

Some people don’t learn a single thing while on LSD, and this is only because of their personal choices, not because of the drug. LSD is not like a roller coaster. It is like a car. You drive it where you want to go, and it will help you get there faster. I do not condone it, but I cannot condemn it because I know what it was like when I knew little and wanted to know more. I have been there, and done that, and I can honestly say that for some people this step is necessary. I believe it was for me. All I can say is, If you are willing to sacrifice your current life in order to know the truth immediately, you can skip the step of taking drugs, and go straight to the most intense experience of truth in existence; truth himself.

Drugs vs GOD

When I had my first experience of God, I can honestly say that it was more intense than all the drugs I had ever taken in my life, combined. It was traumatizing and cannot be put into words. The experience had two stages:

1.) Stage One – The acknowledgement of who I was.

This stage caused bone shaking guilt and suffering, because I was face to face with eternal love, eternal goodness, infinite purity, infinite knowledge, the alpha and omega, and I was so ashamed I was face down on the floor screaming. This perfect being had done everything for me. He created me, and all I had done my entire life was ignore him, and treat him like he wasn’t there. There was no excuse; I could not hide behind anything; all I could do was judge myself and condemn myself to hell. I saw myself as a traitor to all goodness. A worthless maggot who could not have the common decency to give the time of day to the greatest being that ever was. This stage lasted about 20 seconds. I was screaming and crying until the second stage hit me.

2.) Stage Two -The acknowledgement of who I was.

This is not a typing error, and the two stages are as different to each other as black is from white, although they have the same title. The reason they are the same is because, when confronted with the brute fact of God, one literally cannot stop their consciousness from changing. When a person’s consciousness changes, they see from a different perspective. A shift in consciousness is similar to an optical illusion; but instead of being a simple visual change in perception, it changed literally every part of my experience as a living being.Optical Illusion

God’s love was so intense that it burned out any notion of sin and only left me with uncontrollable laughter. Instead of seeing the disgusting things (sin) I had done, I was now able to see the truth about myself; that I was a child of God. I am made in the image of God, an through Love, he touched me. I laughed because I was finally free from myself. I was the one causing me pain. I was the one judging myself like a worthless maggot; God did not judge me. He loved me and did not give me a shred of condemnation. I laughed so hard because God had set me free from myself. I no longer had to be ashamed because I experienced how much God loved me. When you love someone, the last thing you want that person to do is to hide from you because they think they are unworthy. And because I couldn’t hide, all I could do was the one thing God wanted me to do; accept his love.

When the guilt and shame broke, it was like breaking a dam wall, unleashing a torrent of pure bliss that penetrated every part of my being. I felt more pleasure in this experience than any drug I had ever taken. In comparison to quadrupling my visual resolution during LSD, this experience was like multiplying my consciousness by a million times. I felt infinite and eternal. I could no longer feel my physical body and was in a state of pure bliss. Time had no meaning. I was injected with so much spiritual truth that I am still struggling to recall all that I know; which I why I created this website – so that I can record the information trapped within me and make sense of my experiences. When I finally opened my eyes, about 20 minutes had passed. What I experienced inside me was a complete rebirth. Not just an intellectual rebirth, like LSD, but a rebirth from within; A rebirth of the heart. Previously I listed the pros and cons of my experience with Drugs, and I will now do that with my experience and relationship of GodFractal Example

  • Expanded my consciousness thousands of times more intense than the drugs I had previously taken
  • Forced me to correct every fault in my Character
  • Given me the permanent knowledge that I exist within the spiritual realm
  • Given me the highest title a human could hold; son of God.
  • Permanently changed my consciousness to perceive the world like I am tripping on drugs 24/7
  • Changed my visual perception so that I now see fractals everywhere all the time (A fractal example can be seen to the right)
  • Given me more freedom than I knew was possible
  • Given me a constant knowledge that God is present
  • Given me the ability to intensify my experience of God whenever I wish
  • Given me supernatural gifts of healing
  • Given mental images of future events
  • Healed my misaligned spinal chord
  • Given me hope for the future
  • Given me a greater Understanding of reality and God than I ever could have learned from Drugs

Conclusion

If God does not exist, then I would still be taking drugs. Why? Because drugs are more fulfilling than a life without them; and once you have a taste of ‘the other’, you can’t go back to the normal life.

I personally would not label all Drugs as evil; for many of you reading this right now probably drink alcohol and/ or coffee. Most of you have been drunk at least once in your life, so it’s incredibly unloving to shame a person for having the curiosity to try drugs.

Humans have a hole in their heart, and some of us do not give up looking for the solution to this hole. Some of us turn to drugs, and it enlightens us a bit. I personally believe that mind exploration, with or without Drugs, is a necessary step for one to come to God.

I do not believe that drugs lead you to God, and in this regard, I do call them evil. But I honestly believe that alcohol and videogames and chocolate are far more evil than psychedelic drugs, because these worldly things are pure distractions from the deeper questions of life.

Psychedelic drugs force you to focus on these deep questions. They don’t exactly give you all the answers, but they certainly have lead at least a few people to coming to God. One of my best friends found God through psychedelic drugs and mediation, and so did I. But ultimately, when a person unites with God, they will irreversibly abandon drugs because God is far greater.

Because I have taken psychedelics, I am able to speak as a person who has experienced both Drugs and God separately, and I can confidently proclaim to those out there who are still currently in the psychedelic lifestyle, that I have found a much, much better drug.

When I was in the lifestyle, I used to talk to my friends about how cool it would be to ‘permanently trip’. Now I know what that is like, because I am on a permanent trip. This trip can be intensified by mere thought.

It has, and continues to provide me with more knowledge than I could have dreamed of having. This endless experience has no side effects, but it is highly addicting. When you taste it, you will constantly hunger for more, and you have an infinite supply of it. As your life progresses, the trip intensifies. By surrendering yourself to this ‘drug’, you will gain supernatural abilities of healing and you will gain the purest purpose in life; world restoration.

What is this ‘drug’ that makes you trip permanently? Well, it’s not a drug, it’s a Person. It is THE person. The ultimate, necessary, pure person that we exist within, and he exists within us. This person is God. Jesus is his name, and Love is what he is.