My Experience of Heaven

Last night while I was at church something strange happened to me. I cannot describe what it was, but it was like taking the next step towards God. A burden had been lifted from me, and my heart feels freer than ever. After church, when I went home to by bed, I had trouble sleeping, so I chose to meditate on God. After getting deep into meditation, I entered into a lucid dream. A lucid dream is a dream in which you are aware of the fact that you dreaming and can control the dream. This has happened numerous times in the past, and although it is uncommon, I have grown used to them occurring. However, this time was very different, for it was the first time that I actually had the self control and desire to chase after God within the lucid state, instead of chasing after the typical selfish desires that humans naturally turn to when gifted with Lucid Dreaming. I sat down within that dream, and meditated within my own meditation. When this happened, something more than a mere dream occurred to me. I was taken through to another realm; another state of existence. I can only describe the place I was taken to as what most people call heaven.

I have written this blog to record my experience, and although words cannot express the experience itself, it will help remind me of it.

Sound
Music was playing. It was the ultimate song. Infinite information of what the song sounds like was conveyed without time. Beautiful. A perfect representation of God. Unable to be heard with human ears, I cannot begin to describe what it sounded like because technically I would not even label it as sound. It was non visual, non verbal untouchable artwork of God. It was not digital, it was a frequency that did not have waves. It simply ‘was’.

Feel

Throughout the experience, I could feel an indescribable sensation of warmth and love from the centre of my being that overwhelmed me. It was Love, Peace, SouI, God.

Body

had no body, and was able to fly to places with mere thought. Although I had this ability, I did not use it because I was honestly awestruck at what I was witnessing.

Visuals

Everything was made from infinite fractals, but they were different from earthly fractals. On earth, we can only see what our extremely limited eyes and brains can process. We need microscopes to see the deeper information of the fractals in our world. In the dream the infinite information contained in the fractals was observable because I had no eyes. I was a purely mental being. Everything was infinite and perfect.

Nothing was moving in a sense, because like the music, all the information of how it moved was already streamlined into me. I was beyond time, so there was nothing to be ‘animated’ because all the ‘animation’ data of everything was already present in a singular moment.

The actual description of what I saw was a river, coming from mountains in the distance. The water was running, but not in time. It had already ran, it was running and it would always run. All the ‘information’ of how it ran was there, but beyond time, similar to the music. The river was life itself.

There were fields of some plant, that had a stalk like wheat, but the bud was large like a fruit, and looked like a rose. The entire landscape was full of this plant. And it was made perfectly from infinite fractals. I knew that the plant was eatable, but I did not have time to try It. I was only there for 30 seconds before I woke up.

I saw some houses in the distance, and they looked very humble but quite large. I cannot really remember any specific details about what they looked like as they were far away.

The sun was glory, and never went down. It was always there and would always be there. I know this because like I described earlier, all the information of what things behave like was present; outside of time. It was radiant like nothing on earth or space and it had the warmth of love within it. Everything radiated pure love.

When I woke up, I was crying. What I had experienced was more real than this reality, and I desperately want to go back. I am envious of my future self, as I know this relationship, this place, is what I was created for.

Anyway, I must stress that the objects and descriptions of what I have written will not give you the slightest idea of what heaven is like, because it is not the objects themselves that made this place heaven. It was the level of consciousness; the mental state of the ‘place’. I honestly would not even call it a place, because it is not a physical world. But for lack of a better word I must call it a place. This ‘place’ was made of pure consciousness, similar to a dream, but infinite in every regard. It is the dream of God. The heart of his being and the purest place where his essence dwells.

I did not meet a physical image of God, because I did not need to. God was inside me. His love radiated my entire spirit, and no words needed to be said. The experience itself was enough for me. And it has changed me in a way that has brought me to tears right now as I right this.

He loves you so much. he loves me so much, and I will never understand the human nature of why I have judged myself in the past. We are infinite beings destined for an infinite world; and the only requirement to attain this world is give your heart and life to our beautiful and perfect creator.

Why did Jesus Die?

Why did Jesus die? What does it mean?

Despite understanding and believing the religion of Christianity for the majority of my life, I never completely understood why God would create himself in human form just to get tortured and die, and then reappear three days later. Despite calling it a sacrifice, I never understood how God could possibly sacrifice anything, because God has everything God would ever need. God is infinite!

Despite searching, all the answers seemed elusive to me because things such as ‘sacrifice’ or Jewish tradition were did not make rational sense to me (and probably you too). I had the basic explanation as to what ‘happened’ but no explanation to the rationality of such an act.

However, after coming in contact with God firsthand, many of the things mentioned in the Bible have become crystal clear to me; especially the life and death of Jesus. I now understand the reason for such confusion. It is the repetition of religious symbols that blinds us from the objectivity of scripture. We are often taught things about the bible before we get a chance to read and interpret it ourselves without any form of cultural bias.

On multiple occasions Jesus gave parables of himself dying, and explained why, but almost nobody understood these parables at the time, and most people today have heard them so many times that they have lost meaning.

Matthew 13

The disciples came to him and asked, “Why do you speak to the people in parables?”

He replied, “Because the knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them. Whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. This is why I speak to them in parables:

 

“Though seeing, they do not see;

    though hearing, they do not hear or understand.

 In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah:

 

“‘You will be ever hearing but never understanding;

    you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.

For this people’s heart has become calloused;

    they hardly hear with their ears,

    and they have closed their eyes.

Otherwise they might see with their eyes,

    hear with their ears,

    understand with their hearts

and turn, and I would heal them.’

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Due to the nature of God, the majority of his teachings cannot be intellectually taught because the secret knowledge Jesus talks about exists in the realm of the heart, not the mind.

What is the Heart? What is the Kingdom of Heaven? And why are some people/ me blind and deaf?

The heart is the center of a persons being – it is another word for ‘consciousness’ – or ‘spirit’ – or ‘self awareness’.

We use our spirit/ consciousness/ heart to direct the flow of our mind’s thought patterns. The scientific word for this is “neuroplasticity”. Every person, in their heart, has a priority list of the things and people that they love most.

If our mind is like a tree, the thing we love most is our roots – it is what we live for.

When anything other than God is at the center of your heart, you will be unsatisfied with your life, and you will always feel like you are lacking something.

When your heart does not belong to God, you will be completely unaware of his existence. You might believe he exists, but you won’t know where he is. Listening to parables or reading the Bible will not teach you the true meaning of the Kingdom of heaven, because the Kingdom of Heaven is not some place far off, but is a dimension that we live and breathe in every day. It is a dimension that some people are aware of, and others are blind to.

The same way that a 2D piece of paper exists within the third dimension, so it is that the world you experience is built upon the Spiritual dimension.

The moment you start loving Jesus more than anything or anyone in the world, you are instantaneously reborn and you enter the Kingdom of heaven, and become aware of the spiritual dimension. When I personally entered this realm, my vision dramatically increased. My ability to love was unleashed and set free, I no longer felt constrained by the expectations of other people. I am now able to see the geometric patterns that shape our world and notice things like fractal geometry and the golden ratio in literally everything! I get the feeling of a warm fire in my heart, and I always feel the presence of God. If I ever feel fear creeping up on me, I have the ability to crush it by focusing on Love, and I can summon waves of energy and bliss whenever I desire.

If you don’t understand why Jesus died for you, it is probably because you are unaware of the Kingdom of Heaven. For the sake of people who do not fully understand, I will do my best to explain the Crucifixion through my personal revelation from God.

I will explain the crucifixion it in the most logical way I can, because I believe it is somewhat pointless delving in to Jewish traditions of animal sacrifice, because the real meaning to the symbols are lost in modern times and have no relevance anymore.

So lets begin…

1.) Free Will makes us evil

God created us with love, and it impossible to force a creature of free will to love you.
As creatures of free will, it is in our nature to choose evil because when we are created, the first thing we don’t know about is evil and we want to find out what it is. We choose evil because we are tempted by what we do not know. It is a lack of trust in God that leads us to make evil choices, because God knows everything and we do not. We all have evil in us because we all have trust issues with our creator.

2.) Darkness can’t be with light.

The laws of logic apply to everything, or else nothing could exist. Even God is bound by logic. For example, God cannot choose to cease to exist, or create a rock so heavy he cannot lift it. God cannot create a square circle – because all of these things are logical impossibilities.

God is the objective standard of Good, so it is only logical that God cannot be evil or join with evil things. If/When God comes in contact with darkness, the darkness is simply eliminated – the same way that shadow ceases to exist when the light is shined on it. This means that we would be exterminated if God came in contact with us; not because he hates us, but because being with us while we contain darkness is a logical impossibility. We must first become perfectly good if we are to be with him. But we are not good! This was the problem of sin, and Jesus’s sacrifice was the way to fix this problem.

3.) Why a Cross?

Darkness cannot be with light because reality is bound by the laws of logic, so its clear to us that fix a spiritual problem is not accomplished in the physical dimension.

This means that the method of his execution was not really important, but instead it was what happened spiritually that mattered.

However, God’s willful submission to be tortured and die in our place, gave the world an example of his love in a symbolic way that non-spiritual people can relate to.

 

4.) The Paradoxical Nature of the Sacrifice.

God is eternal, and we are not. If you look at a timeline drawn on a page, you have something like ‘beginning, middle, end’. God doesn’t see each part separately in time like us. He sees the entire timeline at once because he is beyond time.

So his planning and execution of fixing the problem of our sin was always there. Although the sacrifice was eternal, the crucifixion still had to happen within time, because if it did not happen then there would be no finite manifestation of God’s eternal choice to save us.

If all of this is true, then this means that we have always had the chance to have a relationship with him, even before he died on the Cross. This really means that we have never had a roadblock between us and God from our own finite perspective. But in an eternal perspective, the roadblock is indeed there, but it is also solved simultaneously.

This is what I call the paradox of the crucifixion. If this concept is too hard to wrap your mind around, then all you need to know is that:

a) It was necessary that God solve the problem of our imperfection

b) The problem was already solved from the beginning of time

5.) The Spiritual Fix

God is Multi-Personal

In the same way that a 3D cube with multiple faces would not make sense to a creature existing within a 2D world, God’s multi-personal nature probably wont make sense to you.
But by taking the concept of the trinity on faith, you might understand why what God did was the largest sacrifice any being has ever made. One of the three persons of God, ‘Jesus’, lowered his spirit into our dimension and inside a human body in order to make a bridge between our world and the Kingdom of Heaven

Jesus’ sacrifice allows us to merge with His Consciousness

Jesus eliminated the impossibility of coming in direct contact with us by “becoming sin” and allowing us to merge our spirit/ consciousness with his own, and then obliterating any darkness left behind

So by merging our spirit with his, we no longer have to deal with the effects that sin has on us, because Jesus becomes part of us, and we become part of him, while still holding our own individuality.

For some people, this ‘merging consciousness’ with Jesus may sound a bit ‘New Age’, but actually this is implied all the time by Christians without them even knowing it. The common linguistic of Jesus merging his consciousness with us is to say that “Jesus lives in my heart”. Most of my life I heard this in a religious sense, and did not actually understand what it really meant. Jesus actually explained this in simple terms.

John 17:

“I do not ask for these only, but also for those who will believe in me through their word, that they may all be one, just as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me. The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one,  I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me. Father, I desire that they also, whom you have given me, may be with me where I am, to see my glory that you have given me because you loved me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father, even though the world does not know you, I know you, and these know that you have sent me. I made known to them your name, and I will continue to make it known, that the love with which you have loved me may be in them, and I in them.”

Please be aware that when I say we can merge consciousness with God, I am not saying that we override Jesus and control him because we become him in that way, nor am I saying that Jesus overrides us and controls us, but I am saying that through our love for him, we become an individualization of Jesus.  We take on his spirit willingly through love and it is through love that we obey him.

Grafting a Tree

A good analogy of this is taking a branch and grafting it on a tree. We are the branch of a diseased tree, and we are grafted onto the perfectly healthy tree of Jesus. The healthy tree has an infinitely powerful immune system that heals our branch.

We don’t just become like Jesus, holding his characteristics, but we literally become connected to him spiritually if we have submitted our entire lives to him. One might think this relationship is parasitic, but it is not. Our connection to Jesus is symbiotic, as we give him love, which he delights in.

God is ultimately the roots of the relationship and is the rock which our spirit stands on. Saying that Jesus merges his consciousness with us is just a more technical way of describing the phrase “jesus lives in me”, but unfortunately due to the mass repetition of this phrase, the meaning is lost for most people who hear it.

Why was it a sacrifice for God to do this?

When Jesus was sacrificed on the cross, it was not just the physical pain that he suffered, but it was a spiritual pain deeper than we can ever know, because Jesus had to separate himself from the Trinity of God and ‘become sin’ so that we, being part of darkness, could join our spirits with his and then return to the Trinity with him.

The pain Jesus suffered was more intense than any pain imaginable, but it would have been more painful for him to lose us. That is how much love God has for us, for God is pure love. When Jesus died, the deal was sealed eternally, as his death carried all the spirits of his children in the past, present and future,  into the community of God.

When the Bible speaks about being Judged by God, it is speaking about the Law of Logic and the light of God being like a fire that obliterates all that is evil. Instead of us being obliterated by God because he is light and we are dark, Jesus’ allows us to merge our spirit with his so that he comes before God with us within him, instead of letting us stand before God individually with darkness still in us.

Conclusion

God’s sacrifice was not just for those who believe in him, it was for everyone on the planet. However, his sacrifice only allowed us the option to be with him – it did not guarantee that we would be with him. We still have our free will and can choose to ignore him and go our own way. He can’t stop us from doing that because if he did this, we would not have free will.

In simple terms:

1.) We are all evil by nature of free will. We are all stained with darkness.

2.) God can’t touch evil because of the law of logic. Light cannot merge with darkness, it can only destroy it.

3.) Jesus’ sacrifice was in the spirit, and his physical torture was a symbol of this for those who cannot understand spiritual things.

4.) His sacrifice is eternal, but it needed to happen within time for this to be so.

5.) God’s sacrifice was to give us the option of grafting our spirit’, which has been stained by darkness, to the tree of life (Jesus), so that through being connected to him, we would become pure light, just like him, and not suffer the obliteration that would occur to our spirit after death if we were to come into contact with God.

Christ had to separate his person hood from the Trinity of God and become sin in order to accomplish this task, and this would have been the most painful experience any being has ever undertaken; for both Jesus and the Father and the Holy Spirit; for God sacrificed his unity in order to unite us with him.

Because of what God has done, we can have the option to merge our spirit with God and live in everlasting bliss; both on earth and in heaven.

Resurrection & End Notes

Concerning the Resurrection, Jesus simply did this because he needed to show us that he, indeed, was really God. The resurrection of Jesus Christ is the celebration of his victory over death – not simply for the fact that he lived after dying, for he was indeed God, but for the fact that he gave us the same gift of eternal life that he possesses. This Gift is the greatest gift that has ever been given. We don’t deserve it, but that is why we call it amazing grace.

When you continue to read the bible you will get a greater understanding of this, but it’s ok to be a bit confused to start with. Just have faith that he will eventually show you this himself. It will come in time with your spiritual growth. If I have said anything that doesn’t make sense, please ask in the comments below.